As you know I suffer from depression and likely other, undiagnosed illnesses. Trying my hardest just to make ends meet is more than enough to push someone beyond their breaking point but when loved ones hold their own happiness above your own stability… Well, that pushed way too far. I have found myself in one of the darkest times of my life with very little support from any mentor health service. I don’t sleep because I can’t and I don’t eat because that is a luxury I can not afford. Rent is just covered but I am in an ever-widening pit when it comes to bills.
What am I supposed to do when the family call to demand I help them immediately when, they know, I need to keep my job service provider and the dark entity that is Centrelink happy to continue to revive any kind of financial support at all?
Do I give up completely? Do I throw away my house and live in a car again?
I only hope that one day they will understand what is wrong with me and why… Hell, I don’t understand that, how could they?
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